Sigh… It’’s been a really rough week so far.. Just on Sunday and even last night, my temperature went up to 38.8 degrees! It just had to fall on the day of the TJCSB concert.. I tried my best and really tried to focus and do my best… I certainly tried my best, no doubt about it.. I don’t know; I hope I didn’t give the wrong impression that I wasn’t looking at the conductor or was screwing up my parts.. I haven’t looked up at conductors so much in my life before.. I’m sure it’s because I knew I was ill and may not be on focus.. So it was a natural impulse to keep looking at the conductors..
Lin Sheng’s really an encouraging and inspiring leader of the band.. Some say he isn’t like that when conducting other bands and indeed, it’s a real privilege to have him conduct us.. After the concert, he came up to me to thank me for bringing my band members to the concert.. Wow; who else would do that? He’s really an appreciative man! Also, his expressions during his segment of conducting (Beautiful Oregon & Danza Sinfonica) were like… Oh my!! He looked very pleased and very inspired by us. At the same time, we were also inspired by him.. I must say that this is what’s called teamwork. You do not flare and blow your top during the concert itself because whatever mistakes’ been done, has been done. What you can do is to save the remaining time of the concert and not dwell on and sink into sorrow when you’ve made a mistake, or when you hear people making mistakes. I didn’t play perfectly, but I must say it’s been really great to be musically educated by Mr Tang as well as the different masterclasses I’ve attended for both Saxophone and Bands.. They’ve taught me not to dwell on any mistakes during a performance and to move on asap.. Because if you sink yourself into them, you’ll only screw your part up even more..
I’m thankful to the TJCSB band members as well as the TJCSB Saxophone section.. Very very thankful indeed because throughout this one month, I’ve really grown as a team player. It’s hard to adapt at first because in Pei Hwa, I’d usually be the one leading, be the one to point out mistakes and it was my responsibility to make sure every section of a piece sounds as decent and brilliant as possible. In TJCSB, it’s the first time for me to have seniors and I really had to adapt having seniors telling me ways to improve and ways to sound better. At times I’m really frustrated to have to try and change the way I play sometimes because I’m so used to me being in the lead. But I take it in as much as possible. It’s sometimes also hard to keep everything inside and I’m really apologetic if I sounded very rebellious at certain points, especially during sectionals!! Looking at Linda being so frustrated also frustrates me because I’d not want to make any mistakes so that it’ll be easier on her.. Oh well, I hope I played my part to the best that I could..
I’m spurred and motivated due to the JC band. I’ve never felt so empowered to strive for doing well before.. Apart from important events like musical examinations and events.. I really tried my best and basically, I just hope I didn’t piss anyone off.. LOL! Yea I sincerely hope I didn’t!
All in all, I wanna really thank Lin Sheng, Gino, Yun Xi, Linda, Rachel, May and Gabriel as well as other band members like GV, Xin Yun, Nicholas, Hasia and all the other band members because I’ve never experienced such a warm welcome before and also they have shared some experiences of theirs about entering the school.
It was really a pleasure and joy to have shared my music as well as them sharing their music with me. It was really hard to adapt, but I think I did it..
Also, a huge Thanks to Mr Tang, Miss Lee, Miss Chng, Jessica, Pauline, Yan Ying, Ryan, Kelly Ong, Yan Hong, Xu Ying, Anna, Hui Min, Grace and Elaine for coming to my debut with TJCSB!!!! I’d be one who’d dwell in my mistakes during the performance if not for you guys.. I didn’t have much confidence when we first started but yea.. I think you guys gave me some confidence!
Cya guyz
p.s, Last but not least, I wanna give out a huge thanks to my band members who messaged me. Like XIN FEI, Ying Xuan, Ching Yi (Who said ‘Good luck for the concert though it’s over.’) Hahahahhaa and… others! LOL