I managed to complete Zhong Hua’s chem papers which I thought was totally madness.. Just seek to understand will be enable me to produce better answers! Anywayz.

I studied with Wei Ling today and it was literally studying! We discussed several chemistry questions and they really allowed me to revise as well!! Really great.

I also completed several Maths worksheets which I thought was rather miraculous.

Tomorrow will be a long musical day trying to complete my coursework. I really, sincerely hope that everything will go well!

And haha should there be joy when someone else goes off-track at this crucial period?? Many people seek satisfaction in really different ways.

Tens of Thousands of Friends

v.s

Several Great Friends
Yet Foreign To A Wide Social Circle

 

I know the answer; there is a really huge ‘cultural’ difference in every class. As so it may seem like it’s the best of the whole entire world to have such a huge circle on your side, but when the circle changes it form such that you no longer fit into it, what will happen to you?

There’s absolutely nothing wrong with both worlds. Just that, which is more worthwhile. Hehe.

It’s definitely been a journey in Secondary School.

First and foremost, outdoor masses KILL! Gosh.. Really hard to project our voices… But today has been great, especially final prayer.. Singing Only By Grace was really great.. I thought that was our best vocal performance ironically (when everything has ended haha)..

Anyway, Pei Hwa Symphonic Band attained a Bronze medal at 75.29% for their score! Really not a bad start at all, just that that ‘Bronze’ word kills many. But oh well, I’m sure they’ll only improve. Great job guys!

Oh yes, I really wonder how I sounded on the sax today.. First time being ‘loud’… Haha my section’s always signalled to become louder… Crazy!

The two days of weekends are great. It’s the only time I get to relax and really enjoy normal life. Academical life really isn’t boring at all; just taxing. Really got to start on my work. Ironic, since I’ve really been dead the whole week! No more cramming sessions, just further-understanding sessions in school. It’s really great!

Ahh yess… I’ve got to get this off my chest!!

SINGAPORE’S GOT TO HAVE A KEEP-TO-THE-LEFT CAMPAIGN

Haha lol that’s all. Rationale: People are just hoarding the WHOLEEEEEEEEE passageway whenever I’m in a hurry to get to school!! LOLLLL Grrr irritating!

P.S I really think that this whole ‘Church’ thing every week really does energise me and gets me all prepared for the coming week.

I hardly get a chance to breathe!

So today was the band’s soundcheck @ Republic Polytechnic. They have been putting in so much effort and it’s really evident in their progress and improvement. I feel tremendously proud of them; it just feels sooo nice having to be there for them and letting them know that I’m there for them. Yea, I may not play such a big role in the band, but I feel it’s a responsibility now as the Senior. It has been a great pity having no one to look up to and set our own expectations. Now that I can be a senior to the rest of the band, I want to do it well, and support them whenever they need it!

They were simply great Seeing them improve so much ever since the Sec 4s stepped down, it’s crazily unexpected that they have matured into such a devoted and dedicated team of players. I salute them! Haha.

Coming back to real life, I can really feel the pressure now. But I guess it all boils down to giving myself my own pressure. I indeed can take time off and have a breather, but somehow, I just can’t? Haha, so many little things can soothe my soul and that is band and music! Haha.. I think I’m mad.

Congratz Gena! She got accepted by Nan Yang JC!

Well so today was racial harmony day. It was brilliant!! Though I was rather antisocial today, I really liked seeing all my classmates being in their ethnic costumes. We actually look pretty good! But I have to hand it to traditional costume wearers because it is excruciatingly difficult to manouvre in the clothing!! Haha and Jia Ying was absolutely un-Indian in her Sari..

It’s marvellous how this was my first time wearing an ethnic costume in my 10 years of education. First time! Not bad, eh? And I guess for many too! It’s the last year of Secondary school life and I must say it has been rather enriching.

Alright, alright. I’ll stop the nonsense. Add. Math test tomorrow. Gotta try my best.

Cya guys.

I finally understood Mr. Larry Lee’s piece of advice: ‘Getting through DSA can bring you an invisible responsibility of doing very well for the O’s’. Wow, absolutely true – now.

I’m losing my mind, I cannot sleep at night because I cannot take in deep breaths and I have to prop up my body by sleeping on my bolster put onto my pillow.

I work really hard, I’m really trying. But if it means harming my well-being, then it sucks big time.

I can hardly take breaks; I feel as though I’m lagging behind whenever I am idle.

I feel a sudden rush of intense words through my mind when I hear classmate already asking for more revision. I wonder if they are of anything good at all.

After school, I try to cram as much information as I can for several hours before heading home. Tell me I’m insane.

I hardly get any sleep at all because I find myself doing more homework into the wee hours of the night. Tell me I’m going crazy.

Is it all about time management, psychological resilience, inner strength, confidence and willpower? I wonder.

Maybe I’m just purely trying too hard.

Let me see what will happen if I take a back seat.

‘Getting into TJC requires (this much) points, even with DSA. So make sure you can do it. Aim for the grades and work hard.’

Argh.. Please tell me that that statement said to me by every one is the cause of my situation now?

I can laugh it all out, but what for?

ZzZzz

p.s Do I even dare to take a back seat??

To distrust someone to an extent where you secretly send someone over to ’spy’ on you and then saying that the ’spy’ is just coming over on that day coincidentally really seriously sucks. Whatsmore, the ’spy’ doesn’t even come at all before; why only now? How deceiving!

Darn. That is the biggest, hugest, most tremendous lie, deception and irritant in the whole entire wide world.

That’s why children really dislike certain parental techniques and thus there are courses like ‘How To Be A Parent’ in this world!! Gosh.

p.s YES I’m pissed. And I amaze myself by being so easily pissed by such minute issues. I usually tolerate more than that. I’m such an amusement!

p.p.s.s The worse part, they really think I do not know anything! Grr..

Some quotes I found rather meaningful.. Anywayz:

“Talent does what it can; genius does what it must.”
- Robert Bulwer-Lytton

“The things that we love tell us what we are.”
- Saint Thomas Aquinas

“Let us permit nature to have her way. She understands her business better than we do.”
- Michel de Montaigne

The tag team has emerged winners! Haha Fang Yin got accepted by SAJC.. Congratz man.. So happy for you.. haha

Just gotta aim below 10-pointer and we should be fine… Just hope everything will turn out well.

Coming back to life, I’m so exhausted by everything in school that I don’t have any more energy to come home and deal with homework and other stuff!! It’s life it’s unbreathable ahha..

Sian to all the unnecessary chaotic after-school life…

I think I’ve just got to stay focus and that’s that..

Today marks 6 months after my birthday haha.. Wow.

So it’s really been a nice day except the killer migraines/headaches..

So studies went on after school till 5pm before heading up to band room for some self-practice. Alfred Reed’s Fifth Suite is madness.

So I checked my phone at 5.47pm:

Phone read: Missed Call; 5.07pm. [TJC called]

Me: Damn!

As I walked home after the LRT ride.. I was absolutely dead tired. I could die on the streets. Then I dozed off on my couch before bro woke up and I retired into my room. Before long, I went out to change out of my uniform.

The phone rang and I rushed back, only to find a missed call again.

This time, I called back.

Me: Hi, ermm.. Did someone call for Alastair?

Lady on the other line: Hello. Oh hi. I am Mdm ____ from Temasek Junior College. I’m here to inform you that you have been offered a place in the school.

Me: Wow.

Lady on the other line: Yea haha I just want to check if you accept this offer?

Me (immediately): Yes, yes!

Lady on the other line: Haha, alright so I put your name down as accepted the offer. You just wait for another call soon and you can get the official letter.

Me: Whoa thank you VERY VERY much!

I’m beaming with exuberation and joy right now!

My headaches disappeared; they simply vanished.

Firstly, my pinky-toe had this whole tear of skin because of the 2.4km run!! My gosh, and all the while I thought some grains of sand went into my shoe… Turned out to be my actual foot. Zzz

It really hurt a lot, it seemed as though my flesh was left exposed. I took a picture of it, but it would be an understatement to the pain! Never had these kinds of things before.. It really freak me out when Is saw some blood stains on my socks haha..

Anyway, on the same day (Friday), I went over to my grandparents’ house for a stayover with them. Very nice, but the whole house was excruciatingly hot!! I almost could not take it…

Anyway, they live just opposite TJC.. Wow I really hope I can get it there..

So I stayed for one night and I had thosai the next day. It was really yummy.

Band prac @ West Winds on Saturday! It was really crazy. I think I might have to try and get used to the new conductor’s conducting soon.. Anyway, we are going to play some crazy pieces like Alfred Reed’s Fifth Suite and well as his El Camino Real!! I’ll die.. I’m already dying..

Haha, I’ve gotta spend my whole week brushing up on them. Everyone else in the band has played it before except me. What a disadvantage! I’m sightreading everything and their just brushing up on the pieces… I’m fainting.

Then today was Wai Yoke’s first and also last band concert! Wow to them, I still haven’t gotten to play for my school’s first concert. I wonder when.

Definitely, anything first would set the bar and then subsequently, things just get better with the next concert whatsoever. It’s good and bad lah..

Anyway, time well spent and now, back to 8 SBQs.. Gosh.

LOL I think Gena had been mercilessly tormented today!! Hahaha..

And even sadder!! :

Sorry Gena haha..

Happy birthday to Amanda Loong!

Tomorrow’s the start of Music Coursework.

Tomorrow there’s choir for Holy Thursday.

Tomorrow the hell restarts.

Tomorrow will be the the day before my 2.4km again.

So many tomorrows, how about yesterdays?

I once said I embraced the coming hecticness of school.

Haha, look at what I’m getting.