I’m sad. I’m utterly sad because something part of my life has ended. Band life, that is. I’m tremendously, immensely filled with sorrow because so many things have ended together with it. In West Winds, I had no worries at all. Music was totally alive then, with sounds of nature feeling the air. Don’t get the wrong meaning of the sound I’ve described, but it so the case? Music is nature. And when you realise that it would end, one’d be so devastated.
Everyone is telling me that wow, now that I have no more commitments, I can totally focus on my studies. Of course, some part of it is true, but telling me that puts me off because, no, it’s the my commitments in music that’s making me like this. Well, everyone passionate about something would put it that way, but for my case, I guess everybody expects so much more from us Secondary 4 students. Of course, it’s this case because the way you answer questions in the past are now marked wrong. Oh well, life…
I’m sad because I’ve realised that it’s like a feeling that music has left my life. I know I probably do not want to pursue it in in the future, but I really want to be with it. It’s like a family pet? Once they diminish, it’s like you go away with it too, just that still physically on Earth. Oh well…
Life has been… I won’t say anything about it, but I’m slowly managing it better from the first term. It was a confidence issue, and the different levels of priorities I guess.. Now that I can’t do anything about music leaving me for the moment, I guess it’s time to embrace the space of.. Pure studies? Haha..
Even Music Elective is crazy, what they expect from us. I’m doing alright, but definitely I want to do better. Haydn’s studies.. The setwork. It’s really absurd… It’s like it has added on a reason why I don’t want to pursue music. HAHA, no.. I love music, but probably performing is more for me. Just that definitely, theory is so important too.. Oh wellz!
Performing as the youngest player in West Winds was… Excellently phenomenal! One could never ask for a better experience. It’s just simply like this.
The concert went tremendously well! I cannot ask for more, simply. I would love to thank all my friends (you know if you’re one of them), my family and my bandmates! Definitely, something made it more special. 
The concert was so great I just want to dedicate myself to the West Winds now, that I’m not in my school band.
I’ve aimed where I want to go after Secondary School! I hope that I can get into it!
Chemistry and Physics are like unknowns to me, in terms of math! I’m finding ways to discover them!
Chemistry: Ammonia, Environment
Physics: DC Circuits, Electricity.
Better brush up.
OH WELL!! Since everyone say it, I’ll embrace it!
Now that I don’t have that much commitments, let me focus harder!
